orange koala

found this and so interesting :}

dang, the words that has underlined is suit me well. I mean is almost similar to my personality :$ what are you waiting for?about to check the results? clickclickclikclickclick and you will be surprised <:D

holiday ain't that boring

hi again :} please don't mind if I post twice in a day it's just because I'm bored. feel sorry for abandoned this blog :< how's holidaaaay? mine is the so-so lah *malays accent* did I go out almost mmmmmmm everyday during holiday?truthfully, I wasn't going anywhereee. yeah. as we know considering that my grandfather had just passed away so, all of my big family decided to stay in Jakarta and gather around.

okay, but that's not too bad, I still enjoyed a few days of holiday,don't worry :p

hmmm approximately two weeks ago (yesterday before new year's eve) yunita and maria accompanied me (that was too 'all of a sudden') to shop in two manggoes . confusing? well Indonesian know it by name as Mangga Dua. One of the largest groceries stores. Mangga Dua consist of three places : harko,ITC and Pasar Pagi. We went to ITC mangdu because from beginning our purpose is to shop some outfit.

Jakarta is also well-known for its traffic *sigh* we decided to go there earlier so that we could spending time longer and not to come home before night.

Yunita is already waited for me while I was going to her cribs by cab. I had wanted to go to yunita's crib by oplet or bajay or public transport but hell me, I even didn't remember where's her crib. thus got me to took a cab in order to be safety.

arrived at Yunita's crib, first relaxing in her bedroom until her sist came in -___- it's about 20 minutes. before we go to maria's, we had to waiting mom and yunita's sista that had been going to market in order to preparing arak-arakan sunatan (idk what's in english is it circumcision?errrr) Yuni's lil bro, Tio :3 while we had waiting, I had a lively chat with tio hahah he is resemble to my cousin only has different in ages,not too long after that, her mom and sist is came..blabllblalbabablablablablabla finally we already on maria's crib and had going to mangdu because it's almost noon and we had not leaving yet.

In a car,we had a long yet fun conversation on our way to mangdu. hahaha from A-Z from vocal to consonant letters okay nuff said.

The first thing we did after reached here is seek around at the boutique or a shop. I went here for look some dress and tops while maria bought a jeans and other stuff and Yunita at first,her sister entrust her to bought some goods but in the end she was just like a normal girls, she went for shopping too :)

eventually, we ended up shop many goods which is worth equals to its price. there's so many kind of stuff you can find it there.Start from the cheapjack one to the Pricey. is unfortunate for me because that was a tricky one to find clothes fit to my size. since I had a big hips and thighs :/

OKAY WE WERE SOOOOO TIRED. my watch showed the time is already too late and like I told you so, The traffic jam was terrified, in a long way to went home, Finally we had arriving at Mary's crib first because can't handle the jammed. While we waited, Maria's ask yuni and me to took some pictures hahahaha

here is the shots :)

people frequently ask what type of Lomo I carried, well that's diana but has similar colorblock to holga. all of properties is maria's belonging :p heheh no further question then. Adios ;)

time to an endless goodbye

To my dearest readers, since it's already 2012 so, happy belated new year. new page of life and new resolution. did you already made a list?well mine haven't done anything with the resolution yet.

Talking about last year, there's so many memories, from delightful encounter till the tearful good bye. I learnt many lesson in 2011. one of hurtful things is I lost both of my grand parents. they already passed away.

Grandma had been suffering ill for years so, it made her condition is getting worse because of medicine and the function of her kidney decreased less than 5% also because another false diagnose from doctor. when she had a 2nd time to hospitalized, at first she didn't wanted to talked with anyone else include me and all of my uncle and aunty. we tried to comfort her and asking why her ignore all of us. fyi, she started to not speak even making a sound after we celebrate new year at hospital. the last time I remember one day before she passed away was my aunty called me to came to cikini hospital ( the place where my Grandma were treated) all of a sudden. I decided to went there by cab. after I arrived I step my feet in a hemodialysis room.grandma was there to had a routine blood washing....

I step into the room and all I smelt out was an odor of flesh blood cause it's already in hemodialysis room . speed up the step and saw her in a critical condition. I were barely burst into tears but suddenly my eyes run dry. stared at her and had thinking why must her to suffer all of these?why not me? I couldn't stand anymore to saw her being like that then I decided to sit in the garden for a while.

fifteen minutes passed, I went back to the room and sat beside her. about thirty minutes later I had to go home because there was a test and haven't study yet. before I go home , I kissed her forehead and saying good bye to her.

the day after yesterday, just make it short, she already passed away and I couldn't with Grandma at that time. My heart was aching. mind has blowing. regret comes later. Life is unfair. me only cried and cried. never thought of this. that was too soon for me. I still need a figure of a mom. I haven't make her proud enough because of me. I just wanted to make me her reason to be happy. but I just can't. I mean I'm still far from her expectation.

I miss all of hers.

I miss how the way she care
I miss the way she talk to me
I miss her laugh
I miss her smile
I miss when she give me some advice
I miss when she often cook for me
I miss sleeping with her
I Miss spending time with you Grandma.

I wish we will meet again. even in dream.

Opung doli has gone and I'm so lonely. our home is not like it used to.
formerly,if I came back from school, Opung Boru always greet me and asked about the day . Now? I feel home just like only for shelter. is it sounds strange when you feel homesick while being at your own home?I do feel that way. there's no reason for me to comeback home. I only found a photo clinging on the wall which in turn making me more miss both Of them.

frankly I still cannot let her go. I lost half of my soul.
and like a children miss their blanket, there's no day I spend all this time without missing both of you :')

Selamat jalan Opung Doli dan Opung Boru, We all here is missing you :')

use somebody

currently song: use somebody -kings of leon

hahahhahahahhaha oh my,finally I remember this online diary pass hahahhahaha after a long break.woozzzup wooozup guyzzzzzzz? sorry for abandoned this blog for several months hufffff thanks God.anyway I got some story to type so here we go

Music and Art Exhibition

Our class (SCENE) Social Class Eleven One aka XI IPS 1 had done a music performance. erghoverall was run smoothly even still looked a bit unprepared because we still needed more rehersal its 'k and thanks God (continuously) Our teacher never got bored to watch our performance yippie thank you My incredible class! *smooch*

Scene Proudly present

geng gaul

geng cupuuuu

Ayu Got bullied

metro xinwen: WE GOT BIEBER FEVER!!

Primbon Commercial,All hail Pacul hahahha

blaster commercial.looking for me?I was the girl who wore stripes dress

cheers-saman-dance!

The Euphoria <:D

the last and not least I love you all...words can't explain how much I smitten all of you in person,thank you SCENE,This art music exhibition is one of the best sophomore memories I ever had :} gonna miss you all!!! xo

"and although there's pain in my chest I still wish you the best with..."

I see you driving 'round town
With the girl I love and I'm like,
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo
I guess the change in my pocket
Wasn't enough, I'm like,
Forget you!
And forget her too!
Said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya
ha , aint that some shit?
ain't that some shit
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a...
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo

Yeah I'm sorry, I can't afford a ferrari,
But that don't mean I can't get you there.
I guess he's an xbox and I'm more atari,
But the way you play your game ain't fair.

I pity the fooool that falls in love with you oh
(oh shit she's a gold digger)
Well
(just thought you should know nigga)
Ooooooh
I've got some news for you
Yeah go run and tell your little boyfriend

I see you driving 'round town
With the girl I love and I'm like,
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo
I guess the change in my pocket
Wasn't enough, I'm like,
Forget you!
And forget her too!
Said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya
ha , aint that some shh?
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a...
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo

Now I know, that I had to borrow,
Beg and steal and lie and cheat.
Trying to keep ya, trying to please ya.
'Cause being in love with you ain't cheap.

now, I pity the fool that falls in love with you ohh
(oh shh she's a gold digger)
Well
(just thought you should know nigga)
Ooooooh
I've got some news for you
uh! I really hate your friend right now!

I see you driving 'round town
With the girl I love and I'm like,
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo
I guess the change in my pocket
Wasn't enough, I'm like,
Forget you!
And forget her too!
Said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya
ha , aint that some shh?
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a...
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo

Now baby, baby, baby, why d'you wanna wanna hurt me so bad?
(so bad, so bad, so bad)
I tried to tell my mamma but she told me
"this is one for your dad"
(your dad, your dad, your dad)
Uh! Whhhy? Uh! Whhhy? Uh!
Whhhy lady? Oh! I love you
I still Love you!! Ohhhh...

I see you driving 'round town
With the girl I love and I'm like,
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo
I guess the change in my pocket
Wasn't enough, I'm like,
Forget you!
And forget her too!
Said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya
ha , aint that some shit?
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a...
Forget you!
Oo, oo, oooo

forget you (fu) by cee-lo